Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Heartspokewords' LiveJournal:

Sunday, January 9th, 2005
11:48 pm	Join em yo's (Comment on this)
Friday, January 7th, 2005
12:07 pm	as we approached this storm it was one we knew to be devistating we took it on together the ship was breaking as the sails ripped one by one we were torn apart as our time came to an end the ship was sinking as I sank with it one thing for me to say forever in my heart you will stay I am letting go as hard as it is, im trying I really am. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
4:49 pm	as she told me with a whisper only i could hear i apologize for the words they were absurd with no problem i quickly forgave but it was me who wanted to apologize with some great haste i stuttered about with meaningful words no doubt my actions from before were still to much for i understand more now than before forgiveness is something I adore with one last second before you go I am sorry to you, will you forgive me so well im not going to stop writing, she IMed me today and apologized for what she said, it meant alot to me that she apologiized, and I found out she reads this journal, so I would like to say to you erin "thank you, it means alot when you say those words, it really does" with that I leave you this another new style i thought i would give a shot (3 Comments |Comment on this)
9:53 am	Take Notice with my last breath on this life the decision of a lifetime for me to decide spent with one great definition in mind that satisfaction of you by my side as i begin to take that breath as my tear flows down my face with death squeezing your hand tight lifeless i become afraid to be without you no longer afraid to love you as I lay there motionless you take notice to the smile on my face jubilant with the times do not spend your time wondering why because the answer was you were by my side I think this will be the last poem I write, my ex told me I think I am a fucking poet, its stupid and annoying and well that hurt alot so this is the last one im putting up I believe, the comment was harsh and uneeded, but I take to heart what she says so im not a poet and what im doing is annoying (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
1:35 pm	Except You i see your face when i wake up the memories are there forever etched into my skull why, why did we do this open your eyes there is so much to see expressions of a beloved person the daily sorrow of a lost love i find myself aching for you nothing i am afraid of except you death has no fear for me do you see me, do you see am i hear can you hear after all of this time why now why your turned your back on me you said you never would that was all a lie leave me in an abyss of nightmares death to those who hurt life to those who live forgiveness for those who love I made this one a long time ago, i just found it, very different from how I write now Current Mood: sad (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
10:29 am	Tormenting Grip relinquish me from your grip you know you still have me your torment of insight on my mind pains me the affliction of your loss was so much to bare your innocent touch has left me with no care your thoughtless actions to my impressions indescribable mercy set into recession your pain and torture is in remission why are we left with such an ackward position Current Mood: crushed (8 Comments |Comment on this)
10:29 am	Cunning your agility is cunning your tracks are fresh I follow you to to the ends and when I get there there is only one drop of water left it is yours to have I gave it up for you will you not give up ignorance for me timeless patterns to see why do I chase you when you wont look back to see if I am still there this is a lil different then my normal writing tell me what you think please Current Mood: curious (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
1:19 pm	Into that night cresent as the moon cunning as the night owl you slip in and out of my mind plauging my thoughts twisting my dreams with miss interpretation and no pereption to feelings emotionless in spirit tender heart inside beat once more tear me down beatin and sore wake up from these nightmares in unison we stand alone we are weak united we are strong each risk to be taken to prove to one another we are secure and we will not go down without a fight we will not breath easily into that night we will not go down without a fight we will love each other on into that night (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 1st, 2005
8:22 pm	This new year on this first day of this new year eternal love is in the air a new heart will spring into the air life has just been renewed to this day so please will you stay forgiving to the mind essential to a new start let us be loved and be true to the heart (Comment on this)
1:34 pm	Is that water clear? Concious thinking tell me what you see reflection of a thousand souls time to mend the holes staring blankly into the water your reflection has faded so have I unspoken bonds of everlasting excitement so keep looking wondering, waiting unknowingly in expectations your heart grows strong as mine grows weak the moon shines down your reflection has been replaced let your wake come crashing down onto the shore for I am alone once more (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 31st, 2004
12:36 pm	And our tree will grow with each drop of water our tree would grow with each day stronger it would hold branches of despair sprouted new leaves of affection branches that led in no direction worn and torn to dismantled pleasure renewed life found as a new treasure complexion of the leaves had changed together we knew it was only deception they would come around in the end leaves everlasting and returning to grow again Current Mood: calm (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:24 am	You Id do anything to be what you wanted me to be see what you wanted me to see hear what you wanted me to hear be the man you want me to be but theres one thing I know I can do that you will not have to show me thats give you the love you need please dont shed a tear the look of your face your smile brings so much grace your love shines down on the roses its there remedy to grow as you have grown on me my obsession of infatuation goes out to you did you not know i would do anything for you I live for you I would die for you I would die without you Current Mood: creative (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 30th, 2004
10:44 am	Life with death deep rage of everlasting passion inside builds up without discretion light my fire and set me off one more time for me to show the pain of my agression it lashes out with unrepressed emotion upset by mental anguish dont heal my wounds let them bleed let me wash away from life Ive already washed away from yours (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
10:44 am	Stars about tears Tonight I sit and listen blissfull mind of endangered intention with your heart filled aura to mention with your amorous stare gone my heart is a menace to itself forever long I yearn for life with simplicity expectations of a lonely individual the gaps are wide the holes are deep will you be there by my side solitary confinement without love Ive drawn that map to your love passion for your affection blank stares with no reaction Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
1:06 pm	One day to the next Oh, miss guided mountain to breath your sweet fresh air to reach what is truely there to climb your jaged peaks to overcome your obstacles with time you could be defeated in time we were defeated climb that ridge up high to that fresh mountain air breathe in deep let it all out let me guide you there time sinks with each breath i watch you breathe now for me to watch from a place down farther alone i walk down this path harder each foot print is a memorie of each day but the mountain snow had got in the way my tracks are lost how will you find me but your strong and had already beat me (Comment on this)
11:40 am	Promises Promises we both broke Promises we both tried to keep we got in so deep yet fell so fast when i hit that pavement why did you not look back was i to far back on the map each side has changed but so has life changed intimate words we both spoke initmate words we both meant intimate words we have yet to love again open your heart to these true words let me exress to you what i first heard dont bring this pain down towards us it hurts to much (2 Comments |Comment on this)
11:39 am	Is there Direction? no direction in sight path grown old staind in memories fond to one but old to another does passion of love still remain in the path down yonder pain taken in for me to wonder why must this happen to thee is it part of a plan i cannot see wonderous memories of joy for me thoughless endeavors of my mind to make one day will things become what they are not today breach the walls and let me know ive been there for your true beauty to show untill each day has gone im swept up in you where I belong (Comment on this)
11:38 am	Can you Whisper simplest to the mind deepest regret in sight ive lost what could have been a happy marrage in the end my heart went out to you as did your heart go out to me i was blind to see the error of my ways the punishment of my deeds must be noted time is upon and the most precious gift you had gave yours im sorry i did not give all of mine mistakes were made remarks were said forgiveness is upon us life between is in sight do you see what i see can you hear what i hear whisper your sweet melody i will whisper back (Comment on this)
11:38 am	Blind to the Minds Eye each nights glory brings passion from above each night I sit and pray to the only who can see every night I sit and think of mysterious things how much farther one can wonder does love have an end or does it break through yonder oblivous to the winters wash of snow understanding of the deserts blistering heat may the sunrise each day to bring what has always been there an endless supply of warmth to my heart bleeding desperately gasping for air is how I feel without you there is no oxygen left we created it for us now there is noting left put me back in the ditch i want to lay over give you my air and let you live for me happy as the sunrise that first set on first morning together Each day to be cherished Each day to be lived Each day to be remembered Each day to love (Comment on this)
11:37 am	Despair Innocent wings of despair can you breath lightly into the air most precious life of limber touch crimson passion of some life of another lived on forever I see through your eyes what I did not see before realization of a lonely individual tears of sorrow and might forgive thus tonite love from a touch live love on into the night a lost drowned soul in the ocean my life seems without you buried at sea covered in sand I reach to give you my hand but alone I stand alone I stand (Comment on this)